i gained weight lately, i need to slim down.
arghhhh...i wanna SLIM DOWN!

=.=
dun be so perasan can or not, read properly, I AM NOT TALKING BOUT YOU! eesh.

perhaps it had already ended.
WTH are u trying to be emo? or to show how pity you are in your current life?
you deserve it.
Everytime when i recall of bout you, sadness for sure take over me, perhaps, not sadness, but the disappointment towards a friend that i prized a lot.
.

>i teasured the moment when we went out together, going to boutiques, or restaurants .
>i cherished the time when we shared everything of us together, family stuff, WORK stuff, or even our deeper feelings.
>i remember the cunning face of you whenever you hug me..'aww...shu' that's what you always said.
>i adored the memories we had together, when we brought each other to many places.
>i favoured the breakfast we had together.
>and the arguements we had, but at the end, everything went fine, because we know, we love each other very much.
>and the jealousy you had, however, u didn't hurt me.
>the pat on my head
>the joy and laughter we had together.
>and the unfading voices saying that we look like sisters, not our external look, but the way we talk, and, act.

that's not all of cuz, memory we shared are to be said, uncountable.
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-:"how lucky you are."
yes, i am, for havin you with me. i was naive, i know, but as time passes, i realized, and i changed. i loved you, a lot.
remember the letter i wrote for you before you leave, it was written with tears, during the midnight, 4 a.m/ i remember.
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And, you left;
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down, i was, when you weren't here.
i started a brand new life, stood up, with all the energy i had.
everthing was fine, i missed u.
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but what i got back was the word B you scolded, you thought it was normal for you, because you're lonely,you need to release, so we're deserve to be called B, for you to release, and you're expected to be forgiven.

-:"what's the big idea? it's only the word B."
i could accept anyone calling me this, and i won't care, but the person was you, you! you never know how hurt i was hearing that, i couldn't even believe my own ears when they told me that, and we were still discussing before that whether when to visit you and give you a surprise, it is because we miss you, and in return, we got a name,B'es.you're expected to be forgiven, everyone can forgive you, but do you know how hard was it for me to let go?
you were the one that was so desperate to leave, and for your own good, i let you go, without regrets. but why things seemed that it was us that left you alone there and we went to enjoy our heaven life? we're just breathing like normal, and we were accused giving excuses.like you care.
-emo- haunted me day and night.
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message:do not show off,look at yourself and recall what you did, what you said, until why had everyone here treat you so.
.
though,i am lucky again, to hav the angels around me, pulling me up,bringing me to a happier side.
thanks, my angels, there're too many of you al, all of you are really beautiful.
luv you guys lots ^^
ms sharon shao ann, i ok de, no problem, yala, when i'm feelin frustrated will disturb u until you fan si ok?

dear bestfriend,

hurting you is not my intention, nor showing off towards you, these are just words hidden in my heart, for a long long time, and i really do need to tell you how i feel, and these shall never be mentioned anymore. i'm really happy that you're having a great life now, (hope its like what i see),may you be well and happy, always. LOVE YOU, forever. take care, the great one~

I appreciate what you did, really. =)

Happy Birhday WXY!!!
09/09/08 (nice number huh)
potluck at my house to celebrate the two cute babies 16th birthday, hope xinyi likes the big big doggie we bought for her n qian qian loves the hello kitty tupperware...
michele's bake pasta was fabulously good, so do xinyi's bake potato n nee's bbq meat, all da food are of quite high standard.
no one was left out, tats the main point.


yea..i know, da pic is a bit scary.

my BFF, promised to eat best n delicious forr together, forever!
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in the evening, shao ann, karmun, jenn and i went for movie--money not enough 2..quite touching haha XD, almost whole cinema crying, except dear jenn.

Jolin turn 28th today!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

JOLIN TSAI.
All the best, my beloved idol.
7th year supporthing you, luv ya forever :-D


P/S:thanks to joseph for reminding me.

At very random, i'm bored.

love hurts, you get nothing but tears. and at the end, family and friends will be the only one with you.

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.
2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.
3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.
6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
7. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.
8. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.
9. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.
10. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.
11. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
12. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.
13. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

dear fung,
i'm fine here, it's been almost a year that you left to australia. perhaps things will be better if you did not leave, at least you'll be here with me to face all these...lols...since u left, no bustard will bring me to yamcha at mamak at night d..life is so miserable without your presence, and now i realise how important you are. awaits to c you soon! k, i know u wanna hear it, i miss you TOO!
take care, hearts.

just finish watching the tvb HK series-The seventh day. hmm...quite sad, infact, very.

Casted by Kevin Cheng and Niki Chow they presented so lovin in the show they casted and it didn't seems tat they're acting.hahas.however, the ending was sad though, the main actress died b'cos of cancer, but their love still continues on. i know it may be kind of not-realistic thinking bout relaitionship shown in series as many said that they won't exist in real life. but if i hav a chance, i would really want it.

有时候命运是很奇妙的，你以为要碰灰的时候呢，老天就会给你一个惊喜。　　人生啊就好像跷跷板，你掉到最低的时候，就是你反弹高升的时候。　　当你要升起的时候，就会忘记之前的失落，可 是你对面的人，当一个升高的时候，另外一个就要从高处滑下来，两个人的命运就是这样交替着，人生就是这样起起落落的。

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分开是为了等待重逢，经历过考验的爱情才能牢固，才是真爱的开始。

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在你被雨水打到全身湿透的时候，你一定没有想到，乌云上有一个耀眼的太阳，正等待着你。黑夜的每个角落，都充斥着他的身影，弥漫着他的气味，残留着他的笑声……虽然失去了，至少拥有，和他一起笑着走过的一段路……

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上帝创造天地万物，做了七天的时间，他将最美丽的事物都放在世人的面前，所以人生在世，无论经历过什么，只要你懂得珍惜，一切都可以是最美好的。

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the words that inspired me a lot, now i understand, LIFE.

last sat, i attended Boon Lee's sixteenth b'day party. Theme for the party this time: masqurette, clothes: formal. i was like oh me god, cos i don't really hav formal clothes, however, i wore a dress an black. then, we're actually supposed to customize our mask boon lee gave us before the party...er okay, wat i decorated proves tat how much i'm lack of creativity cells.

btw, went early there to help out in deco..

quite fun there, thanks to michele for the games and party plan, she really put in a lot of effort.

Ee lyn lost her handphone when we just finished playing our second game, things got serious when we 'ransacked' da whole house but still cant find it, and there were no sound when we called her phone. --worried--

then after tat, Heng lin lost his phone too, but this time hehe, is zheng hong they all tat took the phone la, when the party almost ended, wan hong managed to find the handphone underneath the sofa, then happy ending lo. at bout 11.30 pm, me and mich left, (daddy came and fetch us) then in the car i suddenly recall bout my phone pulak, oh shit...and i cant find it im my bag..then dad drove me back to bl's house immediately to look for my phone.i ran into Boon lee's house and was like shouting, do u all saw my phone? de white one le...then everyone was like laughing, including me, wat a day to lost hand phone.then ee lyn they all helped me 2 call my phone to check where is it, then mich got down from da car,taking my phone,rupa-rupanya the phone is in my another bag in da car.then i left, how embarrasing this is..wakaka

boon lee

loving family

the-mask

Alwin came in at very ramdom

zheng hong

three pretty gals~

vikie n me

alwin

Ee lyn tat lost and found, her phone.

life rocks lately, but sucks too...
please, you can disturb me all the time, but no...no...NO NO NO NO!!! messages and phone calls in midnight k...who do you think i am?!!! i'm not your god tat can settle all your problems, wat you got today is wat you did to 'someone' last time...you got it back, you deserve it.

ann:"hey,when are you guys free this weekend? we'll hav to meet up and do our history presentation thingie."

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mich"hmm,this weekend ah...ok la,who's house 2 go?"

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ann:"sy's house la"

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me:"not a problem for me =D"

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nee:"ok ok...i haven been 2 your hse b4.."

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mich:"ok! good,then i'll make potato salad for you guys!"

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nee:"yay!!! at last,i've been waiting it for decades!"

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and there goes...

in da kitchen, i helped out chef michele:

5 potatoes being scrub-ed, then boiled, plus 5 eggs, when the potatoes are soft enough, peel its 'skin' and mash it,and mash the egg together.then add butter, then mayonese, then some salt and pepper.

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TADA...okay, it may look a bit awful, but it tasted fabulously great! (though it's quite fattening)

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however, we end up spendin our day watching some reality show in com, n cookin, and cam-whoring, things wasn't finished...hehe.

Pei nee,happy of what she wrote...finally,one page is done. >.<

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a picture i took in corliss's b'day party, when the disco ball lighthens. lucky for me to capture this, but i seriously dunno who's the person in th shadow...because there weren'n anyone beside me.

and the day ends so~

it's me =D